We should take the rough with the smooth and battle through, that is my feeling
May 26, 2016 § Leave a comment
We should take the rough with the smooth and battle through, that is my feeling. But she always chucked me when the going got tough, for —, for the ——-, for someone else last year I am sure, maybe now again because I have come to Brussels for three nights, despite her telling me to go. It is good to go away from someone you love for a while. To remind yourself how much you need them and how much you love them and how important they really are to you. But I never feel I can be really close to someone and always think she is going to leave me again. Loneliness and solitude are so important to me. They define who I am and in a very great degree define who I want to be. Without loneliness I lose myself. It may be this pressure will always push us apart and destroy us and mean we are not the right ones for each other. But I will always love her and need her more than anything else in the world. If she leaves me I will be an empty husk till the end of my days.