I am totally sated with Tallulah now
July 17, 2016 § Leave a comment
I am totally sated with Tallulah now. I feel I know all of the Tallulahs in London by name, and they all know me, and they all know I am with —–, so there is no mystery or sinful seduction left in that sphere. It used to be the thrill of a curtain opening and anonymous unknown women disrobing and dancing for you, but now it is like watching my sisters or —–‘s sisters dancing—totally unerotic. This is what makes me wonder if there is any jolly to be found back in the old world of Esmeralda, but my initial searches have been profoundly discouraging. Interesting to wonder if I will find anything at all in Vienna to whet my jaded appetite. To be really turned on again by a stranger! Is it possible for me? I don’t think so.