Lying in her loving arms last night I felt so guilty and ashamed for going off to Berlin
October 3, 2016 § Leave a comment
Lying in her loving arms last night, I felt so guilty and ashamed for going off to Berlin again, and was thinking I am going to be so unhappy on the train to Brussels and the ICE to Berlin that I will probably want to turn round and come straight home again. I have to turn myself on and put myself into a pornographic state of mind and keep myself there to make it work. She has still got the pain in her head and behind her eye. She said she was worried she was going to die Monday night. The GP gave her painkillers, and told her to stop taking the pill, and cut out salt, and relax. Perhaps me going to Berlin is what has stressed her so much.